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Guilt;

A year of self examination.

LESSONS FROM FRIENDS.

MZ: I have always wanted to go to Japan.

CS: Yeah I know! Since I met you! And on your day off, you can go see Mount Fuji. I'd just have entire days when i'm alone and I'm having such a great time sometimes I feel like i'm my greatest lover. 

MZ: The ticket to Japan is probably seven grand.

CS: I hitch-hiked six times in Hungary. You can become like, you can become whoever you wanna be.
 

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FA: It's another day in Los Angeles. Beverly Hills to be exact. Today, I decide to take my new Rolls-Royce Wraith. I leave my multimillion dollar mansion and blend in with the morning LA traffic. Usually being in traffic is not a pleasant experience. But when you drive a 260 plus thousand dollar car with a 6.6 liter twin turbo V-12, a 13 thousand dollar starlight headliner option, and complete sound isolation from the outside, it's kinda hard to pay attention to what happens outside. I stop at a red light. Holding the bespoke hand-stitch leather steering wheel with one hand. And adjusting the air conditioning to a cool 68 degrees. And I notice this guy in a third gen Honda Civic. He's staring at me. As soon as our eyes cross, he looks else where. But I can see the look on his face. He's jealous. He wants a car like mine. His girlfriend is sitting right next to him. Pretending to look at her phone
But she is actually taking a picture of my car. I bet he told her to do so. The light goes green and I flow past them. Reaching 60 miles per hour in a mere 4.1 seconds. Not bad for something which costs as much as your house. I get to my destination in complete comfort. As it's always the case when you drive a Rolls-Royce. But to look good,. Its gotta be the latest model. Can't be seen driving around in a series 1 Phantom with the wrong fog lights. I mean, You can buy those for less than a hundred grand, that's like, what I spent in two weeks.

LCNow I get men staring at me in an endearing, nice way. 
MZ: Like, 'Oh she's my daughter?' 
LC: When I had brown hair, nobody gave a shit about me. Also, having blue eyes. Now that i'm ginger apparently it's a life in distress. Every single guy who talks to me says I have beautiful eyes. Customers come into the store and say 'dude wheres the girl with the beautiful eyes?'

MZ: Hahaha, what was the first time? 

LC: When I used to work at Ace & Tate. We used to have to stand next to the door to greet people . We always saw people walking passed the storeand then come back in to speak to us. There was this really old guy. He asked if i'm an artist. He asked if I studied English. He asked if I read Lolita. Really skinny white girl, badly dressed. "Can I get your number?" -- Motherfucker, are you joking?

MZ: Did you have a little flip phone? --No way. Like LeBron watching WWE. 
 

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MZ: What are the earplugs for?

LZ: Going to sleep in Soho is not really the same as going to sleep.

MZ: I think i'll be good.

LZ: You'll always be good.

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NB: --It's profound. And it works. It actually, genuinly fucking works. And it's free. I think right now, I'd get these staples right; reading, journal, go for a run, you staple the basics then you build your esteem and then you'll be ready to... --talk. Get it out. Go for a while. What you've done today is courageous and positive and it's a platform you can build on now. You're owning your situation.

MZ: I wish I had more friends like you.

NB: I'm here. I actually love to talk on the phone. If I can't i'll say "I'll get back to you soon". Because I love to talk. I'm in a flat on my own...  

MZ: I'm unsure what to say. 

NB: It's fantastic. Great. You've arrived in Growth Period now. Get on that bike and peddle. And you can scope out-- (phone rings)

MZ: Someone's calling me I should tell them i'm not avai-- actually, it's fine.

NB: Take it if you want.

MZ: It...really doesn't matter.

NB: What does your sister do?

MZ: I've been so focused on shit that-- not focused, but I have been so focused on me that I haven't even asked her what she does. I haven't even asked her what she does. How fucking hilarious is that? I haven't even asked you how you are today. (laughs) How are you?

NB: But that's positive. Your awareness is going up.

MZ: I think that's my biggest issue.

E V E R Y T H I N G  I S  J U S T  M A D E  U P  O F  A  B U N C H  O F  C O N S T A N T S  A N D  V A R I A B L E S.
 

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IG: Powers of manifestation. You've exceeded every expectation of what a man could be. I'm investing in a good pregnancy pillow whilst i'm not living with you because sleeping in any other position that's not on top of you is awful, i've decided--

MZ: I'm going to write down exactly what you just said and show it to people one day.

W H O  C A R E S  A B O U T  T H E  S T A N D A R D S  O F  O R D I N A R Y  P E O P L E ? ? ?
 

MZ: What's the first thing you would do with your own basketball team?

IJ: My brother. I'd sign James Harden. Supermax contract. Hit the clubs on Castleberry Hill. 

MZ: You've thought about this too much-

IJ: -tuesday's. Only Franklins. Yam's Day. New whip, like a slave master-

MZ: James Harden gets drug tested.

IJ: -Essex blush, zucchini. Baby Blue AP. G4. And a record deal. Ball is life only comes second. 
MZ: The System.

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