Shelter
self-imposed exile
at Chaja's.
the fifth day I had my XT5, Mishu.
CM: I just had a conversation with a couple of boys who tried to sell me a hello fresh box and they asked what I do and I said I’m a counsellor. He asked “What? like, for this borough?” and I only realised once they’d left, he thought I was a local political counsellor.
MZ: You should have just went with it. “Yes, would you like to complain about the state of your patio?”
CM: First (definitely not last) time that’s happened to me.
MZ: Craziest sleep of my life.
CM: Just the bizarre experience of being somewhere you did not expect to be yesterday morning?
MZ: I think a mix of that and being absolutely mentally exhausted.
CM: Yeah, and I retract the “just”.
CM: If I was there I’d make you a cup of tea. I don’t know if you like tea, but if you do, there’s a whole cupboard of it above the microwave. Herbal and non herbal and fruity and everything. The coffee table lifts up by the way. That’s where I used to work.
I just looked at the calories of a nut bar that Benji got me, and I sure wish I hadn't. Do I go for a night time swim in an unheated pool? Yes appears to be the answer. I feel like the last two days have been spent in fierce battle between two disparate parts of me, and it’s exhausting.
MZ: Look how cool my friend's living room is:
JY: That's the bookcase of a very educated individual.
MZ: Do you know whats funny - despite everything thats happened, my mind is kind of at peace at this very given moment. Knowing that somehow I’ve clusterfucked my way into a strong enough bond with someone who let me have their place for the night.
CM:
You can stay as long as you like.
MZ: I was brought up by the Wong Kar Wai school of Tidying Someone’s Flat is the True Love Language.(Everything is still where they were just rearranged / made use of drawers right next to the thing).
CM: I’m feeling all warm and fuzzy now. This is the first time my flat has looked like a home in a year. All the more so because I know it came from a place of love. It was designed with love. I’m kinda glad it’s getting some human contact.
2 hours later : finished tidying!
